Sunday, April 29, 2012

Epiphany

I am simply astonished at what I have learned in the last four days. What I have realized about my self, what I have realized about others. I feel like a brand new woman! The importance I have placed on certain things in my life, have often times been misdirected. I felt like I was heading in the right direction, or "fighting" the right fight. Turns out I was WRONG! I have this constant need and desire to TALK about EVERYTHING!! Why?! Most often times it doesn't change anything. Most often it makes you second guess yourself or those around you. How is it tht it has taken me 25 years to have this epiphany? Ok I will give myself a break, the first 10 probably weren't real deep thinking years. But still 15 years to realize I just need to shut up! Now this may be completely ironic that here I am "talking" about shutting up, old habits die hard...I could make the excuse that if I write it down, I will remember, or maybe it is just my way of letting other people...like me...know the answer. If you love someone, love them, show them, just o it, don't sit around talking about it. I am all for words of affirmation, and expressions of love, that's not what I mean. I have spent so much time analyzing love, worrying what this means, or what that means. I could have missed out on the feelings, the experience, the joy of what love is. I want to be more than I have been in the past, so I should just be it!! Stop talking and do! I'm excited for the realizations that have come to my mind, and that change that has been wrought in my heart. I am excited to do, and to be!